How am I?

1 month has alr passed, and i can say this.. i am weak..

heard you are doing well, guys liking you, you moving on.. but for me.. not as lucky as you are..
i had to embrace the coldness of Germany alone for 2.5 weeks.. ALONE with no close friends.. no one to talk to, no one to lean on. no one for me to love. no one to like me. ABSOLUTELY NOBODY.. when i prayed, i dun even feel Him there..

so now i am back in Singapore. have family and close friends around me again.. thank God I've got them..

anyway, you thought of how I'm doing? not very good i can say, i dun eat well, i dun sleep well, i cry almost every night, in camp or at home, or even on the move, i think of you, cos that was wad u meant to me, everything.. now that everything is gone, i've got nothing but emptiness! depression is slowly kicking in.. or maybe it alr has.. all i know is that i've never felt so miserable ever before..
1 month has alr passed, and nothing has changed..
Not that i have nothing to do, i've been keeping myself occupied, very occupied! but every time when things are done, no matter how tired i am, i cant stop thinking abt you, abt us. and then my emotions run wild again.

i hope i will get better, but i doubt it will be so soon..

I always wonder, after we are apart am I still in your heart? Or was there even traces of me in your heart after leaving? Or was i such a burden/nightmare to you that when we parted our own ways, it was such a HUGE relief to you and you just forget abt me being ever in your life cos finally the nightmare is over?

i will admit, i still love you ALOT.. but i guess you don't feel the same way towards me as you use to anymore..

i will move on, very very very slowly but surely, but in the mean time, i hope u'll find a good guy,(at this rate i dun think it will take tat long for you (= ) and pls, dun be someone u're not just to win his heart... dun repeat the same mistake..

i thank you for the 2 and a half years we shared Amanda...

With whatever love is left in me,
Daniel Kang




You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.