How am I?

1 month has alr passed, and i can say this.. i am weak..

heard you are doing well, guys liking you, you moving on.. but for me.. not as lucky as you are..
i had to embrace the coldness of Germany alone for 2.5 weeks.. ALONE with no close friends.. no one to talk to, no one to lean on. no one for me to love. no one to like me. ABSOLUTELY NOBODY.. when i prayed, i dun even feel Him there..

so now i am back in Singapore. have family and close friends around me again.. thank God I've got them..

anyway, you thought of how I'm doing? not very good i can say, i dun eat well, i dun sleep well, i cry almost every night, in camp or at home, or even on the move, i think of you, cos that was wad u meant to me, everything.. now that everything is gone, i've got nothing but emptiness! depression is slowly kicking in.. or maybe it alr has.. all i know is that i've never felt so miserable ever before..
1 month has alr passed, and nothing has changed..
Not that i have nothing to do, i've been keeping myself occupied, very occupied! but every time when things are done, no matter how tired i am, i cant stop thinking abt you, abt us. and then my emotions run wild again.

i hope i will get better, but i doubt it will be so soon..

I always wonder, after we are apart am I still in your heart? Or was there even traces of me in your heart after leaving? Or was i such a burden/nightmare to you that when we parted our own ways, it was such a HUGE relief to you and you just forget abt me being ever in your life cos finally the nightmare is over?

i will admit, i still love you ALOT.. but i guess you don't feel the same way towards me as you use to anymore..

i will move on, very very very slowly but surely, but in the mean time, i hope u'll find a good guy,(at this rate i dun think it will take tat long for you (= ) and pls, dun be someone u're not just to win his heart... dun repeat the same mistake..

i thank you for the 2 and a half years we shared Amanda...

With whatever love is left in me,
Daniel Kang




You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Life while waiting for NS..

It was the 23rd of June, first day of school after the holidays, I woke up, looked at my phone and saw SMSes from my student..

"Mr Kang, our new Math teacher cannot control us! Come back to school and teach us la!!!"

"Mr Kang, come back to school la, we can't hear our teacher at all..."

Hai, boys, is not that I don't wanna teach you all and just sit at home rotting, waiting for NS, but I do hope that you guys will understand that it is for your own good. What if I continued and halfway through I left you guys and the new teacher came in at the 5th week? Then you guys will have to adapt to the new teacher's style with such short time before your CA. So I hope that you guys will understand.. SO, listen to your new teachers and do well k?

Anyways.. Hai.. my Ben Ben fly off liao (Again). It wasnt that sad as compared to the first time, I guess, maybe because we've been there done that before.. But anyhows, BEN SUA! Study hard there k?! Don't twirl with your hair too much, later that spot of hair drop off... ROFL!!

Woo ya, Man Man got blog too!! So cute sia.. Haha.. Do take a look k?

St Gabs... On the Other table..

10 weeks just flew by like this in St Gabs. And I can safely say, "I enjoyed every single moment there, even as a teacher.."

I taught Mathematics to 2 classes..
1E3, the worst express class in the express level, and 1T1, self spoken, I guess..

Though there was all the screaming and shouting, it was all fulfilling especially when students from 1E3 come up and tell me, "Sir, don't leave us la, you're the best teacher we've got", "Because of you, our grades improve.", "You're the only one who can control the class."
Boys, I really thank you all for the experience there.

However for 1T1, though I can't control them as well as the 1E3, I guess i became their friend more than a teacher.

And the staff of course.. I would like to thank all the RTs In the Working Room, all the laughters and bitchings, and also to Mr and Mrs Tuang, Ms Patrine Chua and Ms Toh SY for all the guidance everytime I am lost. Of course to the many many teachers i missed out, THANK YOU!

Gabrielite Family, I will be back!

Boys, see you all when you're all in long pants! LOL.

Oh ya, I drank Coke in St Gabs! A school that dosen't sell any sugared drinks for the past 7 years!! LOL

Keeping silence

In the world these days, it's so hard to keep silent. Everyone just wanna have a say. But however, does keeping silent during an argument a sign of cowardice? Does keeping silent about an issue means that you can't be bothered about it?

Well, to me, I think keeping silent prevents me from many arguments in any relationships. But the only question is, how long can I stay silent before my emotions explode?

Goodbye NYP, Hello St Gab's and NS

Hello once again! Its been 6 months ++ since my last update. So happening huh?
Anyways, YES! NYP is over! well, just to update what happened over the the past 6 months.

Got attached to Bionovar,urm, ok, shall come back here later..

First there was the rap battle at MOS, Mike's da champ!


Then there was the annual Christmas BBQ with the Brothers on 21st Dec, obviously it just gets bigger and bigger!


Then there was Christmas..


Then there was the many many times (about 5?) I went clubbing without Amanda. =x I still lub you darling!

Then there was the Inter-JC pageant at the Arena. Sadly, Seong Hoon never win, but, dun worry bro I still love you.

And of cos, there was 8 FEB, my birthday!!



Anyway, at Bionovar, went to the prawn farms at
Perkan. Most importantly, there, we've met the most WONDERFUL Filipinos colleague I tell you.. They are godsend..


So after my attachment, bump for a week, and here I am, updating again!
Come 17th Mar (Stephanie AKA ah toot number 3 bday!!), St Gabriel's I will see you again. Yup, been accepted to St Gab!! Will be teaching Sec 1 express and Normal Tech. Continue to Pray for me!

Its all over this sem!!!!

YES!!!! IT'S ALL OVER!!!!

Now, attachment.. And I got what I requested for.. Bionnovar.. It is an in-house company, meaning that the company is found within the school(cos rental is cheap, I think..)

Sounds not bad right? Not so far from home.. Not like other people who are attached to Biopolis in the west!!

BUT!!!

I freaking gotta come back on a damn SATURDAY!!! FFFFFFFFFFFZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

So sad... zzzz... Pray that I got a nice In-charge and a wonderful 6 months there! =)

Can you smell it????

1 more paper to go.... I smell.......... Freedom.......